A Special Day, 29 Feb

After finising the CHEMISTRY paper, i could finally grin like a Chesire cat..hehehee..exams had ended...lalala~~~And then, we had "mesyuarat agong". As expected, i didn't get any post, tht's normal coz i'm just a small little tiny 'atom' in school..whow study too much of chemistry edi...hahaha.. After school ended, sm n frenz went to 1u for movie. But i couldnt go..coz i hav piano..arghhh..

When i reached home, i felt sooo tired and didnt feel like doing anything ...just wanted to quickly bathe and lie on my comfortable bed... the faster the betta.. BUT...piano lesson starts at 3.15 p.m. "Hello..u dun have time to rest, u didnt practise enuf " this kept lingering in my mind. I really didnt want to go. So I , the lazy bum sms my tcher. In short, i skipped my lesson. OH , i'm such a terrible person . But i really needed a rest after spending sleepless nights studying like a mad person..(the bad thing abt studying at the eleventh hour) Neva b like ME...never ever!!

Actually sth happened to me today, a pessimistic person like me is quite impossible to think tht "wow the world is so beautiful' or "I love myself". All these have never come into my mind. Lying on the bed, alot of thoughts came into my mind at once. I started feeling sad again as i thought of sth which i really cannot accept . And then, i could feel the hot tears streaming down my cheeks. She was my best friend but now she is my friend. She was sitting next to me but now i have to stretch my neck to see her. The memorable moments we had are over..its OVER.. No matter how, it could never be like last time. What i know is she is now happier that she doesnt have to b with me at all times..perhaps i 'm a boring person who doesnt noe to treat ppl well. In fact, i'm a paranoic who is very scared of being hurt. That's y i'll make sure tht i dun hurt others so that dey dun hurt me too. I really cannot stand the feeling of being hurt. My heart is vv fragile! Even a small little matter can make my heart break.

I always try my very best effort to fulfil what my frens want..did i?? so tht dey feel good to b wif me..but then it seems tht this way doesnt work. Nowadays, the friends who care abt me can be counted using fingers. I can feel tht i'm juz nobody in others' eyes or mayb even transparent. It seems tht nobody notices my existence in this world. So i will feel v happy when a person calls me, at least i'm nt invisible. Tht sounds funny. Actually juz by talking to me can make me b in the seventh heaven. I really like to b in a crowd with a bunch of friends. But now i'm always alone in my little world. Everyone is very important to me so i'll try to get out of my own world and join the crowd!!

A sense of guilt

In the twinkling of an eye, i'm already one month older...time passes really fast... CNY has finally ended..and all the examss r coming vvv soon. But i havent started studying yet :(

Luckily it's just the monthly test...or else i 'm goin to get last in class. So this shows tht i must start studying consistently from now onwards , if not i will have to suffer later. Ok. i shud study now..

Contributions made to school

Finally , we 've finished the painting on tue...or else we would b skipping umpteen lessons. It was considered as a great success..i guess..coz everything looks beautiful to me. Perhaps tht was bcoz i involved myself in the painting. HAHA.. somehow we managed to paint the mountains on the middle wall. Can't believe my eyes, but we did it!! At first we were skeptical bout adding the mountins on the wall.. coz we thought that would look terrible..and might even ruin the whole thing. Thank God it turned up nice..hehee. It was actually our principal's idea.She said that she could visualise that the mountains would beautify everything. Yes , now i agree!!

The day after, Pn Zubaidah bought us a cake to show a token of appreciation. The cake was fr Secret Recipe. It's huge!! I distributed to all my dear frenz who really helped me alot. Without them, this task could neva b done. Oo yea.. we actually painted 5MAT on the wall to show that we have contributed sth to the school... and also
we LOve the school!!!

OUR SPIRIT

Today all of us were nt in class cozz we're in-charge of the mural painting which needed to be done b4 pibg day.That's hard! But with the help of a few teachers and friends from other classes...things have bcome sooo much easier. Coz " many hands make light work"..this is very true. Everyone was very cooperative. This is the scene which i rarely see in class, but now i 've seen it. It's good to work as a team. I really wanna salute to all my friends who kept painting despite the burning Hot SuN. Wow..that's the spirit!!!

But we couldn't finish everything in one day so will continue the next day. Work hard ppl!!! And thanks alot for helping ME..muacksss

A Narrow Escape

According to the astrologer,this is not a good year for those who were born in the year of horse. I didn't really care when i heard it fr the radio. But today i was almost hit by the timber door which was placed on the scaffolding. Not only that, there was actually a spanner on top of the door. It was sooOo dangerous coz i was just underneath the scaffolding. Fortunately, I managed to run away in time, or else i would be injured badly. Can't imagine that!!So i was considered very very lucky..thank God!! It was a narrow escape.

When school ended, i was rushing to the bookshop to buy notebook. On the way down the stairs, i saw my friend's sis..so i just smiled at her. I was holding quite alot of things at that time. Suddenly i couldn't balance well,and i just fell down and hit my head at the wall. Ouch! it was so painful!! i felt dizzy 4 a few seconds. So, i sat for a while before standing up. The thing that saddened me is that my watch got scratched by the rough surface of the wall. Oh no! i love that watch but now(sobb). When i looked into the mirror, i saw a scratch on my head (near the temple). What is wrong with me? What i could say is today is really my unlucky day. As what the astrologer said, i should be more careful to avoid getting injury easily.Ok so i have to always bear in mind" BE CAREFUL!!!!"

To Start With Something New

As this is my very 1st post..i'll try to make it as interesting as possible. Well, today is the 4th day of cny..and very soon i'll have to go back to school, which makes me feel sad.How nice if i could have more hols during dis cny...and how nice if my elder sis could celebrate her cny wif us. I hope she doesn't feel lonely over there. Ohh, i really like to DREAM!! But all these will never come true. The reason why i create a blog is i want to start with sth new. Before this, i was just like a lost sheep. But now, I finally figured out what i really want, i want to be HAPPY!! (though this may sound easy..but is actually not) . From now onwards, i want to enjoy my life to the fullest and say a big "NO" to sadness. Coz when a person is sad,he or she is only hurting themselves...so why do i have to be soooo stupid. As we all noe life is never a bed of roses, there are always obstacles that stop ppl from thinking positively. Now that i'm 17(gosh..sounds old), i have to set my goals in life..and not just wasting my time doing sth useless. Just do whatever i feel like it...so that i'll hav no regrets in the future. This year is a make-or-break time for me as i'm sitting 4 SPM(nightmare). I really dun like examss. But anyway, i'll still try my best! Oh now is still cny..but i have edi thought so far..wei come back!!! Hah..i'm quite happy tht i actually got a handsome amount of angpows this year..and here i would like to say a big thank you to those who gave me this happiness!!!heheeOK..i shall stop here 4 today!!

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my 17th birthday

^exquisite card^