You're NOT going to affect me :)

Hey you know what?? It's okay to hurt me after I've recovered, I don't get sad anymore!!~

You made me feel unimportant, so I have to make myself feel more important :) Blek:P

Could I be any BETTER ??

I admit that I have been trying to change to become someone better. 

During my break last year, I actually took a long time thinking of what I could do to become a better person. For example, I'll see how I can change some of the bad habits I have, or how I can change certain negative mindset which has been instilled in me long time ago.

I just didn't like the way I used to be, so I told myself I must change no matter how hard it was going to be. 

"I want people to feel comfortable when they're with me, I want to love my parents and family more, I need to learn to say NO when I have to,  I want to treat myself better (sorry for being a little selfish here!!), I want to be a nice friend, I want to try my best in everything I do, in short : I WANT TO BE A BETTER PERSON!!"

Haha... I feel so greedy when I see how much I want from myself. I always have this habit of evaluating myself after doing something. I just hope that I don't repeat the mistakes I've once made.  

But knowing that it takes time for a person to change,  I will just take one step at a time to becoming a better person. 

Starting from this year, I have started to introduce myself as Richelle instead of Jyy Yee. It's definitely not because I dislike my chinese name, just that I think it'll be easier for most people to remember and pronounce my english name. 

Apart from that, I think this is also a very good chance for me to start becoming someone whom I had wanted to become. Because when using a new name, I feel more comfortable and easier to make new changes. 

I no longer continue to do something which I don't like just because I used to do that. I just feel free to be different now. 

In fact, I named myself Richelle long time ago, just that I didn't know when to use it. But now, I feel that it's finally the right time for a change!! :)

Even though I've always wanted to change to become someone better, that doesn't at all mean that I'm not being myself. Just that I'm... ever-changing?? :) Until.... I think I'm good enough?? HAHA:)

After 1 month :)

Without realizing, I have already entered uni for like one month:) 

  

Overall it had been great, for I did so much things in such a short duration of time. The things which I did in this month could be even more than what I did during the 7-month long break :P

I have started to adapt to my new life as well as staying away from my parents. I have never been parted from my parents since young, hmm.. except when I went for trips with friends. Haha.

And there was once where I had to stay away from home for 2 weeks. That was when I worked for an event. Only 2 weeks but I was so desperate to go home after 1 week of work, and I actually did. 

For now, I kind of enjoy staying by myself. I got to learn to be more independent, and no longer have to rely entirely on my parents and also my maids :P 

Unexpectedly, I actually enjoy cleaning my room whenever I think it's dirty. Usually when I am at home, I never even want to take the initiative to clean my room -.- Maybe because there's no need for me to do so:) Or I should just say bcoz I'm lazy!!

Yes I'm happy to be where I'm now :) Just hope that I can be happy throughout this whole year :D  Life is just too short, just don't wanna waste every single second in life!! ~

I don't know why I'm thinking of this , but yea this was just something that came across my mind.

>> If someone were to dislike you for who you're, and that person is not that important to you, just ignore them, because we can't possibly please everybody!! And no point getting upset^^  

Haha sorry for my randomness (:

How's life in IMU so farrr ?? :)

The last time I blogged was before I entered IMU. And now, 2 weeks of orientation had finally ended. I really miss those moments where I got to spend time with my group members as a team in every single activity.

So I was in Group 9 during orientation and will always be proud as a Group 9 member. My group is just beyond words could describe. In short, AWESOME!!!!! :D We all worked very well as a team, and the seniors were always there to assist us whenever we need help. 

Our group name is 999... HAHA :) Simple as it may sound but we actually took quite some time to come up with this name. Our cheer was really cool, so glad to have some creative members in the group who came up with all these amazingly great ideas.

I have never felt so happy to work as a team before. That's probably because I could feel a real sense of belonging when I'm in my group. Just like a big family :) That explains all the smiley faces you see in my post.

I really enjoyed all the activities held during the orientation. I got to know many new friends, not only the dental students but also those doing other courses such as medicine, chiropractic and so on. Some of the activities like ice-breaking and treasure hunt made us really dirty and smelly, but it was the fun we had that's worth remembering. 

I realized that I can be really crazy when I want to. Because most people who know me would probably think of me as someone quiet and shy. I do agree that to some extent, but there's actually another side of me which I have not shown most people yet. Yea I can do crazy things too!! :P

I also realized that I've become more talkative and not as shy as before. I feel so good when I don't hide things or feelings when talking to my friends. I can just be MYSELF :) Something which I struggled to be in the past. 

Even now, our group always have outings or meals together. So I've never felt lonely even when I'm not staying with my family. Mamak sessions with the seniors is really a great bonding time for all of us. Playing mind-challenging games with them simply makes my brain think more..haha :) Just hope that our friendship will last for a long long time ~

As for now, I'm happy to be who I am, and am ready to accept new challenges that I'm going to face. I know this journey is going to be a tough one, but with the help and support from so many people, I will try my best to walk till the end~