searching for...YOU!

what am i still looking for when i've gotten almost everything i wanted..BUT there's one thing which i am seriously lack of...i've been searching everywhere with every possible avenue but my fervent hope has not come true...I really need a person who is willing to be my listener at anytime, anywhere...whenever i have a lot of things to say , no one is dere for me to tell..i hav no choice but to bottle things up to make myself as if a bomb that can explode at anytime and scare everyone far away from me...though i do tell my friends abt certain things but i dun tink the things i said appeal to them... i know i'm not an interesting person..but i always try to myself to bcome one..and none of my attempts succeeded....haha so just be myself...the one whom nobody likes to be with..

how do i feel when i keep everything to myself?of course it's terrible...when i'm in this state, i'll not want to utter a single word to anyone even to my dearest friends or family....i only enjoy talking to ppl who are interested in what i'm saying and will give their opinions during the conversation ..bcoz if he or she has no interest to talk to me...what for i make him or her talk.. this is as if i'm forcing to crack an unripe egg...i just do not like to force ppl to do something unwillingly..so if u don't like me..just tell me and i'll stay away from you automatically..it's just as simple as that...by virtue of my eccentricity, i've lost quite number of friends,but what's done is never undone...i really don't know whether it's right or wrong to behave in this way.. but i'm starting to see the effects ..my friends are limited..hopefully they won't extinct in the future!