AMBERrrrrrrrr...

This is her friend, Amber.. This girl, let's say, I met her in Std 2 to be exact.. and she was shorter back then.. but now taller.. And I'm still TALLER than her! Whooo! Now, I'm in form 5 and will be leaving in bout 1 and half months.. good thing, I get to celebrate my CNY here, bad thing, right after CNY, I'll be leaving.. How sad is that? But according to my dad, life is like that.. Sorry, lil out of topic, this is jyyyee's blog.. Ok, she'll be going to taylor's next year with her frens.. But she'll be joinnig me in aussieland after she completes her A-levels! (: I'm 100 percent sure bout it...I hope she can be a doctor so i get free consultation..

Ok, enough of crapping, take care peeps, bye!

Your guest blogger!

Today amber has come to my house!!

she has eventually finished writing on my autograph book..thanks!

we didn't do anything special...but we did enjoy the moment we spent together..

hopefully our friendship will last FOREVER...

By: amber & jyyyee

After SPM....

I'M ABSOLUTELY FREE NOW!!! I no longer have to attend all the tuition classes which i used to go reluctantly...let me recall what i've done in these 15 days after spm...

summary:
27/11: went 1U and watched "10promises to my dog' (a vv slow-moving movie)
28/11: where else can i go bsides>>1U..watched madagascaR..(interesting)
29/11 & 30/11: went Pavillion FOR a shopping SPREEeee!!
1/12: went 1U to watch TWILIGHT~~(not bad but the book is even betta)
2/12: went 4 a weekly meeting..went to pg's hse then she stayed overnight at my hse
3/12: went 1U ..watched BOLT-3D..went home by bus(wasn't a gud experience)xd
4/12: played badminton..at least i did sth more beneficial : )
5/12: went to taylor's college in sri hartamas to ask about the courses provided
6/12: went to taylor's college for registration...taking a-levels..went 1U again!
7/12: didn't go 4 dorothy's party but went KUANTAN!!
8/12: still in KuantaN...but was raining non-stop..not fun!
9/12: went 1U to meet>>>YIXIN!!(my long lost friend..haha)
10/12: just stayed at home to clear all my bOOkS...Irritating!!
11/12: goin 1U to see my friends later..after that..will go 4 badminton..V busy:)
OMG... I could actually remember everything w/o writing diary everyday..i guess that was most probably because the things i did in these 15 days are virtually the same...the MODE for these 15 days is "GOING TO 1U" , 7 times...this is just like going to school...but the only difference is that i carry my handbag instead of a schoolbag..and it's so much lighter...haha..to be CONTINUED...

searching for...YOU!

what am i still looking for when i've gotten almost everything i wanted..BUT there's one thing which i am seriously lack of...i've been searching everywhere with every possible avenue but my fervent hope has not come true...I really need a person who is willing to be my listener at anytime, anywhere...whenever i have a lot of things to say , no one is dere for me to tell..i hav no choice but to bottle things up to make myself as if a bomb that can explode at anytime and scare everyone far away from me...though i do tell my friends abt certain things but i dun tink the things i said appeal to them... i know i'm not an interesting person..but i always try to myself to bcome one..and none of my attempts succeeded....haha so just be myself...the one whom nobody likes to be with..

how do i feel when i keep everything to myself?of course it's terrible...when i'm in this state, i'll not want to utter a single word to anyone even to my dearest friends or family....i only enjoy talking to ppl who are interested in what i'm saying and will give their opinions during the conversation ..bcoz if he or she has no interest to talk to me...what for i make him or her talk.. this is as if i'm forcing to crack an unripe egg...i just do not like to force ppl to do something unwillingly..so if u don't like me..just tell me and i'll stay away from you automatically..it's just as simple as that...by virtue of my eccentricity, i've lost quite number of friends,but what's done is never undone...i really don't know whether it's right or wrong to behave in this way.. but i'm starting to see the effects ..my friends are limited..hopefully they won't extinct in the future!

6 JUNE 2008

DEAR DADDY ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

The RAIN didn't stop us !

4JUN2008 (WED)

oH Noooo....it's raining cats and dogs out dere...so how am i goin to set up everything later...I'm getting more and more worried...tonnes of questions came to my mind the moment the rain lashed at the windows...will they come later? will everything be fine later? will anyone complain later? will this happen later? will that happen later? RAIN..U're giving me a lot of trouble!! Please do me a favour...stop raining asap or at least b4 my friends arrive.But it didn't get better, in fact it was becoming worse. Out of a sudden, there was a flash of lightning and my whole house was plunged into darkness. I was panic-stricken! gosh! What kinda party am I organizing later? It's quite suitable to have a Halloween party in the dark <00> but it's not at the right time! Luckily in the end everything was alright despite the darkness in some parts of my house. I've invited quite a number of friends. Let me list & thank the ones that came on that day.

Special thanks to :

benz deey

bo yuan

chyn woei

jessica

ji-ann

kee aik

kevang

kit wei

pei gek

qin ling

siew ming

soon hui

(the names on the list are in alphabetical order)xd

sorry for the "darkness"

I'm sorry to have made u guys undergo a hassle b4 reaching my house..haha..And I really appreciate it..thanks alot!! I hope u guys had fun at my place and I would like to apologize for any inconvenience that may have caused. I was glad that u guys came!hehee!!!

a typical group picture :)

How Do I Feel Now...

my house has now become so much quieter after my bro and youngest

sis have left for hong kong..which means i'm lonely

~Lonely, im so lonely,I have nobody for my own,

suddenly, i started to miss them.. i didn't know i would have missed them soooO MUCH!! until i slumped down in the sofa and on the tv..it was absolutely silent. I could only hear the sound coming out from the tv..usually i will be talking to my sis or even arguing with her just

because we want to watch diff channels..

**

now i can finally own the whole tv..and watch whatever channel as i

wish..but i dun find the tv programmes nice watching

I . . . . . G . U. E . S . S

i have used to live in a big family!

Luckily i'm not the only child in the family

because i cannot survive without them..REALLY

i have refrained myself from being lachrymose no matter

how much i miss them.. I only hope they have a

wonderful, happy and safe journey..

**AND must get as many souvenirs as possible for ME!!!

i dun care!

heheheheeheee....

I'm bored !

Argh...is dere anything fun out dere for me to do...I'm really bored. I guess I'm abit too hyper..I can't sit still...Initially, my another holiday plan was to go Australia with my cousin's family...HOWEVER, my mum doesn't want to go with me bcoz she'll be going to UK soon(my sis's graduation day) so everyday I'm just rotting at home...either sitting in front of the computer or being a real couch potato...Since my plan didn't work, i shall indulge myself in other activities.. instead of just letting my precious time flies away...Will think about it seriously! :>

I miss the beach

Finally the long, tortuous examinations has ended... omg i couldn't wait to get out of my study room anymore . I must go somewhere AND my dream came true. My family and I decided to go PD. Everybody agreed as PD is very near...we can reach there within an hour, provided tht the traffic isn't congested. I started packing all the things required(e.g. sunblock-the most important one) On the way to PD, the traffic was terrible. Unluckily there was an accident. So the journey took about 2 hours...zZz At 1st we wanna stay at Avillion Hotel..too bad it was fully booked...so after searching the internet, we went to the 2nd option- The Legend Water Chalet (is located along the coastal stretch of Port Dickson)..At the first glance, it looked okay though is not as nice as the hotel we wanted to stay in..still can be accepted...hehee :) The room is really special because once u step in ... u can see a bathroom without door....very interesting. There are also 2 solid glass panels for viewing the sea beneath the floor(i like this the most but couldn't see any fish) so sad :(

After unpacking our things we ran desperately to the beach as if there's no tomorrow. The weather was pretty good and so we played with the sand as well as the seawater. But the seawater wasn't as clean as I expected..was slightly cloudy (water pollution). Or else, it would be perfect!

taking a stroll on the sandy beach

self-entertaining

see who can kick the highest?

After that we went back to the hotel... Next, we dipped ourselves in the jacuzzi . It was awesome!! This is a must-try in the hotel. At night, we enjoyed very much in the hotel's arcade. Next morning , we went swimming, cycling and fishing. We woke up early in the morning (arnd 6), coz wanted to watch sunrise but it was a wrong decision. It didn't turn up nice as PD is not known for watching sunrise but sunset..hahaha. We left PD at about 12 pm . Though we didn't stay for a very long period, we already had enough fun dere...I really miss PD now..perhaps it was bcoz i went with my family.. i wonder how it would be if i were to go with friends???xd

BEFORE LEAVING

It's UNBELIEVABLE !

Today is April Fool's Day!! And it's also my lucky day. Everything just seemed to be going so well until i couldn't believe what had happened. I woke up early in the morning to get ready for everything b4 going for driving test which i had been waiting in anticipation. Finally the day has come... Then i drove illegally to the place where i was supposed to reach at 6.30a.m. to "warm up" . The journey to the driving school took abt 1hour. We reached at abt 7.30a.m. It was still early , so we got to practise b4 the test began.

We had waited for very long for the counter to open. Then we went to wait at one place until our names were called. Just right after i came back from the toilet, the person in-charge called my name. Then i was waiting anxiously for my turn to come. "Nombor 64" oh no!! It's my turn... Then i greeted the examiner and he was not that scary afterall. In fact, he's quite nice as an examiner. I was driving very slowly and carefully to play safe. True enough , I passed the 1st test(driving on the road). Yeah I was HAPPY...then i went to the next station. This time round, we had to wait for ages for our turns to come....it was sooo boring and the weather was getting hotter... After a long long period of time, finally i could put a fullstop for the whole process.... I was called to drive on the slope, side parking and last but not least three-point-turn. And I passed!!!! It was quite unbelievable... I walked happily to the pondok to sign the form. When i finished signing, i realised that it wasn't my form...omg..i signed on the wrong form..arghhh...
But it was not a big deal... they just cancelled and asked me to sign again. Pheww...

After reaching home... my dad congratulated me and brought to choose my own car...wow..everything was happening too fast as if i was still dreaming...By next week, i will be getting my P- license together with the car...oh i'm so lucky!!!

Holidays

Recently, many people are falling ill bcoz of the erratic weather. Luckily, I'm not one of the victims..(hope I won't b sick after saying this) Don't you think it's really torturing to b sick during the holidays..coz holidays are the best moment for us to let down our hair and not a period of rest and recuperation. But, I think I have been too relaxed until I became so lazy. Every day, I'm just lazing around. Haiz, I thought I would do alot of things, but in the end I did nothing. I started feeling guilty for what I have not done. There 're too many distractions arnd me and I just couldn't resist doing them. Who to blame if it's not me? nobody...
Whenever I look at the piles of homework which are waving at me, my eyelids will somehow become very heavy and eventually I fall asleep. But once I'm far away from that place, I'll be miraculously energetic. Strange isn't it? Ahaha....or shud I just describe myself using one word-LAZY. I'm actually quite happy when receiving msg from friends asking me abt how to do such and such homework..coz this can really be a powerful motivator. It really works. Thanks man or else I wouldn't even take the initiative in doing my work.

I'm just a Beginner!

Driving is an experience that everyone should try it on your own because you'll never know how it feels like until you hold the steering on your own. Today is my first time driving on the road. I thought it was easy but it wasn't for a beginner like me. Luckily, I have a very patient and nice instructor, she taught me every step in detail. So after letting me know every important part of the car e.g. clutch, brake, accelerator, speedometer, fuel gauge, gear, handbrake, side mirror, rear-view mirror etc, I began my lesson. I sat at the driver's seat excitedly. First, i adjusted my seat until my foot could press the clutch to the maximum. Then, I checked whether all the mirrors were in the right positions. Next, I tried all the signals to make sure they were functioning well. After I had settled everything, I fastened the seatbelt. Here my journey began.

I started off with the 1st gear and I just followed my instructor's instructions. I found it hard to do a few things simultaneously, probably my brain couldn't coordinate well with my limbs. I also have another problem. The steering! It was hard for me to control it, so the car was like zigzagging on the road. Very dangerous!!! I think no one dares to sit at the passenger's seat when I'm driving. But, it was only the first time. I'll improve..it's just a matter of time. The road was rather busy as I drove back home. Yet, I was driving like a tortoise...no wonder one driver honked the car horn as he drove past ..ops sorry la..After that, my car stopped at the traffic lights, but when the light turned green, the engine spluttered and died. In fact, before this the engine had died for arnd 3 times..heheee I was panic-striken..fortunately the instructor cooled me down. Afterall, it was FUN!!! My next lesson will be on this wed. I just found out that it clashes with qx's surprised party. If possible, I'll try my best to go.

Feeling good to skip school ^.^

Skipping school w/o good reasons is a bad sign!! And i''m doing so. This is my first time after failing to skip school for so many times b4 this. Nowadays, i can hardly spare my time doing sth tht I like. I have refrained from watching tv, singing karaoke, taking long nap, attending art lessons and so on... Bcoz i really have no time for all these, i have to attend many tuition classes and accomplish mountains of homework. I'm really exhausted, lethargic and TIRED!!! I'm bored of my mundane daily routine. I wanna rest and rest and rest before I wake up to meet the dawn. Finally my dream comes true.. the march holidays will start very soon...and I make it start even earlier. As expected, b4 the holidays, all the teachers will start giving as much homework as possible until I can't list all them in my homework list.

Now that i just got my L-license, i will try to start my driving lessons asap. Hmmm... this coming holidays will be the ideal time for me to start. I hope i can finish the 8 hours lesson during the holidays and not when school reopens. It still quite unbelievable that I'm going to drive soon. It's hard to imagine too. I think I'll be facing some difficulties when driving since i'm short. Argh.. why didn't I jump more often when i was younger..haiz what's done is done, I'm not going to change anyway..so I shud just make my weakness to bcome my strength..hahahaha

I didn't go 4 school and i'm now blogging here.. terrible ryt? What to say..this is my way of releasing stress..I can just write out whatever thoughts that came into my mind..den i won't keep thinking of them..isn't that good? This morning, i was woken up by my mum who was chatting wif my sista via msn(with the aid of webcam)while i was still sleeping soundly. I could listen to everything they said. I heard that my sis is upset abt some problems that caused by her friends. She was really down in the mouth and had been crying one whole day. She even drank to stop herself from remembering the sad case. I really pity her. Then i woke up after knowing this. I went to say Hi to her. She was quite shocked to see me..coz i was supposed to b in school. I really understand her situation as i was once in the same boat.

Sometimes, people just like to make a mountain out of a molehill... They didn't even realise that their act will actually cause the innocent ones to have unnecessary problems. Since I had the bad experience and had successfully overcome them, I tried my best to console my sister. I told her not to care about what others think of her bcoz that will only harm her instead, just do what she thinks is right . Indeed , tht's the best way to show her friends that it was not all her fault.

It's really very not nice to be treated like this...luckily i have some supportive friends who were willing to lend me their shoulders to cry on. Thank you sooo much!!! I'm perfectly fine now and i hope that my sister will be so... :)

Work Hard, but Play even HardeR !

HAHAH...finally i got the pictures from Pn. Zubaidah!! She actually allowed me to bring her camera home. Oh tht's very nice of her. Guess what?? I didn't know my frenz can pose so well until I saw all the pics..xd. I suppose everyone did enjoy the painting coz all the faces in the photos were plastered with big smiles. When we get sth, we'll also lose sth. That's the trick! So we had missed many lessons. And it's time for me to catch up now..or else i'll be left very far behind. ~~~

*CreatiVe PoseRs*

ouR maSteRpieCe..GoRgeOus

~Unity is POWER~


it's so dangerous!!!

A Special Day, 29 Feb

After finising the CHEMISTRY paper, i could finally grin like a Chesire cat..hehehee..exams had ended...lalala~~~And then, we had "mesyuarat agong". As expected, i didn't get any post, tht's normal coz i'm just a small little tiny 'atom' in school..whow study too much of chemistry edi...hahaha.. After school ended, sm n frenz went to 1u for movie. But i couldnt go..coz i hav piano..arghhh..

When i reached home, i felt sooo tired and didnt feel like doing anything ...just wanted to quickly bathe and lie on my comfortable bed... the faster the betta.. BUT...piano lesson starts at 3.15 p.m. "Hello..u dun have time to rest, u didnt practise enuf " this kept lingering in my mind. I really didnt want to go. So I , the lazy bum sms my tcher. In short, i skipped my lesson. OH , i'm such a terrible person . But i really needed a rest after spending sleepless nights studying like a mad person..(the bad thing abt studying at the eleventh hour) Neva b like ME...never ever!!

Actually sth happened to me today, a pessimistic person like me is quite impossible to think tht "wow the world is so beautiful' or "I love myself". All these have never come into my mind. Lying on the bed, alot of thoughts came into my mind at once. I started feeling sad again as i thought of sth which i really cannot accept . And then, i could feel the hot tears streaming down my cheeks. She was my best friend but now she is my friend. She was sitting next to me but now i have to stretch my neck to see her. The memorable moments we had are over..its OVER.. No matter how, it could never be like last time. What i know is she is now happier that she doesnt have to b with me at all times..perhaps i 'm a boring person who doesnt noe to treat ppl well. In fact, i'm a paranoic who is very scared of being hurt. That's y i'll make sure tht i dun hurt others so that dey dun hurt me too. I really cannot stand the feeling of being hurt. My heart is vv fragile! Even a small little matter can make my heart break.

I always try my very best effort to fulfil what my frens want..did i?? so tht dey feel good to b wif me..but then it seems tht this way doesnt work. Nowadays, the friends who care abt me can be counted using fingers. I can feel tht i'm juz nobody in others' eyes or mayb even transparent. It seems tht nobody notices my existence in this world. So i will feel v happy when a person calls me, at least i'm nt invisible. Tht sounds funny. Actually juz by talking to me can make me b in the seventh heaven. I really like to b in a crowd with a bunch of friends. But now i'm always alone in my little world. Everyone is very important to me so i'll try to get out of my own world and join the crowd!!

A sense of guilt

In the twinkling of an eye, i'm already one month older...time passes really fast... CNY has finally ended..and all the examss r coming vvv soon. But i havent started studying yet :(

Luckily it's just the monthly test...or else i 'm goin to get last in class. So this shows tht i must start studying consistently from now onwards , if not i will have to suffer later. Ok. i shud study now..

Contributions made to school

Finally , we 've finished the painting on tue...or else we would b skipping umpteen lessons. It was considered as a great success..i guess..coz everything looks beautiful to me. Perhaps tht was bcoz i involved myself in the painting. HAHA.. somehow we managed to paint the mountains on the middle wall. Can't believe my eyes, but we did it!! At first we were skeptical bout adding the mountins on the wall.. coz we thought that would look terrible..and might even ruin the whole thing. Thank God it turned up nice..hehee. It was actually our principal's idea.She said that she could visualise that the mountains would beautify everything. Yes , now i agree!!

The day after, Pn Zubaidah bought us a cake to show a token of appreciation. The cake was fr Secret Recipe. It's huge!! I distributed to all my dear frenz who really helped me alot. Without them, this task could neva b done. Oo yea.. we actually painted 5MAT on the wall to show that we have contributed sth to the school... and also
we LOve the school!!!

OUR SPIRIT

Today all of us were nt in class cozz we're in-charge of the mural painting which needed to be done b4 pibg day.That's hard! But with the help of a few teachers and friends from other classes...things have bcome sooo much easier. Coz " many hands make light work"..this is very true. Everyone was very cooperative. This is the scene which i rarely see in class, but now i 've seen it. It's good to work as a team. I really wanna salute to all my friends who kept painting despite the burning Hot SuN. Wow..that's the spirit!!!

But we couldn't finish everything in one day so will continue the next day. Work hard ppl!!! And thanks alot for helping ME..muacksss

A Narrow Escape

According to the astrologer,this is not a good year for those who were born in the year of horse. I didn't really care when i heard it fr the radio. But today i was almost hit by the timber door which was placed on the scaffolding. Not only that, there was actually a spanner on top of the door. It was sooOo dangerous coz i was just underneath the scaffolding. Fortunately, I managed to run away in time, or else i would be injured badly. Can't imagine that!!So i was considered very very lucky..thank God!! It was a narrow escape.

When school ended, i was rushing to the bookshop to buy notebook. On the way down the stairs, i saw my friend's sis..so i just smiled at her. I was holding quite alot of things at that time. Suddenly i couldn't balance well,and i just fell down and hit my head at the wall. Ouch! it was so painful!! i felt dizzy 4 a few seconds. So, i sat for a while before standing up. The thing that saddened me is that my watch got scratched by the rough surface of the wall. Oh no! i love that watch but now(sobb). When i looked into the mirror, i saw a scratch on my head (near the temple). What is wrong with me? What i could say is today is really my unlucky day. As what the astrologer said, i should be more careful to avoid getting injury easily.Ok so i have to always bear in mind" BE CAREFUL!!!!"

To Start With Something New

As this is my very 1st post..i'll try to make it as interesting as possible. Well, today is the 4th day of cny..and very soon i'll have to go back to school, which makes me feel sad.How nice if i could have more hols during dis cny...and how nice if my elder sis could celebrate her cny wif us. I hope she doesn't feel lonely over there. Ohh, i really like to DREAM!! But all these will never come true. The reason why i create a blog is i want to start with sth new. Before this, i was just like a lost sheep. But now, I finally figured out what i really want, i want to be HAPPY!! (though this may sound easy..but is actually not) . From now onwards, i want to enjoy my life to the fullest and say a big "NO" to sadness. Coz when a person is sad,he or she is only hurting themselves...so why do i have to be soooo stupid. As we all noe life is never a bed of roses, there are always obstacles that stop ppl from thinking positively. Now that i'm 17(gosh..sounds old), i have to set my goals in life..and not just wasting my time doing sth useless. Just do whatever i feel like it...so that i'll hav no regrets in the future. This year is a make-or-break time for me as i'm sitting 4 SPM(nightmare). I really dun like examss. But anyway, i'll still try my best! Oh now is still cny..but i have edi thought so far..wei come back!!! Hah..i'm quite happy tht i actually got a handsome amount of angpows this year..and here i would like to say a big thank you to those who gave me this happiness!!!heheeOK..i shall stop here 4 today!!

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my 17th birthday

^exquisite card^