Never say never~

How have I been recently??? Very busy.

I've not been this busy before, it all started after I joined the dance which will be performed during the intervarsity games, organized by Aimst @ Kedah.

  

I actually think that I'm busy at the right time, not because what we're learning now is fairly easy and it's definitely not. But the reason why I said so was because previously I think my  brain had wandered off too far away, until I couldn't concentrate well. And I've actually made myself suffer for no good reasons. Stupid me:P

At least now that I have something to engage in, I tend not to think about other things. It's like there's just something for me to do almost every hour. You know when you're busy, your mind just can't think of anything else but for the things which you're doing, which is good:)

Though I get really tired almost everyday, I still don't mind as long as I get what I want in the end. Undeniably, the thought of giving up kept lingering in my mind, because it wasn't easy at all in the beginning. And giving up on something is always easy, but it's the determination to do it till the end that is the difficult part. And that's what we call "Perseverance".

I don't know if I can do it, but will definitely try. I'd just missed out too many opportunities of any forms in the past, all because I gave up too easily. And I was always skeptical about my own ability to do something even before trying it. Actually, nothing is impossible if we're willing to learn.

The more I'm afraid of something, the more I want myself to do it, to try it, or even see it. Yes I just want to conquer as much fears as possible. Because when you're all by yourself, you just have to face everything YOURSELF. So it's better to get prepared..haha sounds like I'm torturing myself !! >.<

For now, whatever happens, I will just let it be because sometimes certain things are just beyond what we could control. But I can certainly choose the way I want to live. 

I know this post might sound like I'm talking to myself. Hmm actually quite true. Because I just can't find a good way to express what I feel, what I think but I really need that. For I always feel better after doing it. And I don't think anyone would like to lend me their ears for all my relatively boring thoughts. 

HAHA don't worry, I won't bother you. And I will always find a way to heal myself. Because if I don't love myself more, who will ?? :) 

Just Move ON~

Life may be a little tough at times, but as long as we don't give up and continue to move on, I'm sure it'll turn out to be good. 

Glad that my problem is no longer a problem anymore :)

How I feel now is shown below:

P/S: Don't hesitate to smile :)

Thanks to my friend who drew such a pretty design on it. I LOVE IT SO MUCH and would love to be as happy as the tooth :D Because the smile makes her look really pretty. 

 SO what are you waiting for ??

~FLASH YOUR SMILE~

Something to share :)

~Whenever you're starting to see hopes, something just have to tell you that those are merely your imaginary hopes or false hopes. You were merely dreaming. It was just a dream. WAKE UP!!! You have to wake up no matter what. The longer you stay in the dream, the longer you're cheating yourself, it was not real at all. Don't fool yourself by being fooled.

It just feels as though someone has brought you next to a well, and they tried to make you fall into the well by going down with you. When you finally fell deeper and deeper, until you saw no light at all. You suddenly realized that you were being fooled, because the person you went down with earlier on was gone in the middle of the way. You were all by yourself, feeling really helpless. 

But in order to survive, you just got to find the way back. You have to keep trying until you eventually reach the top and see the light again. It's definitely not going to be easy, it might take a really long time or not, depending on how fast you want to get back to where you once belong to. And how badly you want to get away from the world of darkness and see the sunshine again!!

Every time you get hurt or feel cheated, you learn a lesson. So the next time, if someone approaches you and wants to bring you down to the well again, will you say "YES"?? The answer is "NOT ANYMORE". I've learned my lesson and would like to thank the person who previously brought me down. Because of you, I am wiser now.

Ok I was just telling you a story!! I know this is quite lame XD And the lesson of the story is once bitten, twice shy :) Next time, I'll try to tell a more interesting one. Let me think first.. hmmmm....hahaha :D

Back to normal again~

I realise that nowadays my blog is rather boring, with all my stupid emo posts... hahaha :)

Feeling not too bad today, had fun with my bunch of friends. And I went to try out for singing (felt like trying something new & fun), because there will be a performance next week. And this is for a charity event, so why not :)

Today seems to be filled with lots of activities. Is good that this can keep me occupied, then my brain won't wander off :P 

Alright I shall end today's post with my current picture :) 

Had my home-made sandwiches before lecture.. Hmm~ so nice!! :)

Guess what?? I've become a big eater after entering uni!! HAHA:D

Stop cheating!!~

I think I cannot cheat myself anymore. I always make myself to think that everything will be fine, when deep inside my heart it is actually not. There are so many things inside me that is making me crazy. I'm cheating myself, to believe something which is not true.

And I actually can't take it anymore, but I know I'll have to. No matter what, I must handle it by myself because it's my own problems. It's not because of you, or you, or you. So I will not let my problems to affect anyone in my life, because that's just so unfair.

It's okay don't have to worry about me. I'll help myself to get through this. I know I will. Like how I always do. And I would like to end this post with a 

:)

You'll never know until...

I'd finally understood how it felt like when it really happened to me. Anyway it's good to at least get the feel of it. Since that's part and parcel of life, I will accept it and learn from it.

~Tomorrow will be a better day~

(because I want it to be)

Hiking :)

Yess I went for hiking today!!!

I was quite excited because we were going to watch sunrise at the peak of the mountain. It's SUNRISE ~ I have not watched sunrise before. Because usually when I wake up, the sun is already up there:) And I wouldn't wake up so early in the morning JUST TO WATCH the sun rise.

But when there's a bunch of friends who were going to witness this spectacular scene at a relatively high altitude together with you. How could you say "NO" right?? :)

Waking up at 3am didn't seem to be too hard, that's probably because I was enthusiastically anticipating the hike which sounded rather challenging :D  I knew it was going to be fun!!! And I really enjoyed it. Never thought it would be this fun.

I LOVE rock climbing, although I felt as though I was a "monkey", but I actually enjoyed being one. Hmmm....might consider to climb the trees next time, HAHA :) Oh no, I better stop behaving like a "monkey", this is like the post-hiking syndrome (still feel like climbing something even when there's nth appropriate to climb) :P

I was really in awe of the view right beneath my feet. It was soooo beautiful~ how I wished everything could just remain as how they were and let me slowly view every single corner around me. Then take a deep deep breath~ that will be so good !!

Sometimes, we just need to sit back and look at the beautiful world around us, and learn to appreciate and treasure what we've got before it's too late.

We're always happy to be together!! :)

Jeff: hopefully this hike can be a memorable one for you, if you're going to leave us :)

Puo Nen: this is one of the coolest pictures we took together :)

Shun Shun: You're just so nice!! You always make me laugh a lot :DDD

Wanna take a look at how beautiful the view is:

Frankly speaking, actually it wasn't at all easy to hike especially when you're doing it for the first time. But it was the support and care from all the group members and also my determination of wanting to finish the whole path that helped me to keep moving forward, until I finally reached the finishing point. I could feel a great sense of self-satisfaction after the hike :)

(:

I don't know how to express my feelings nowadays. It seems that everything has gone back to how it used to be. I just feel like how I felt last time. Oh nooo...this is really a bad sign. Since it's something which I used to feel, I will solve it as soon as possible. Give me some time, and I'll be okay :)   

~  Time is the best healer ~

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